It is strange how a visit from a friend can change someone's plans. I had spent whole morning and a part of the afternoon on Saturday counting birds with a friend and when she drove me back home at about 3 p.m., I invited her over for a cup of tea (& lots of chocolate) and "have a tour" around my home. I like to chat with her and actually it was very pleasant sitting in the warm living room together but at 7 p.m. I wished I had some time for myself again. She left at 9. Again it proved that I will probably never change and will always be like Parzival who didn't ask the question when he was supposed to.
When I visit someone, I always try to leave soon enough but still, I always wonder, if I didn't stay too long. Don't get me wrong, I like visits from my friends; if they stay long probably means that they feel good in my home; it was just this time that it felt like someone was invading into my home. Besides I have given things away that I did actually not wish to give. Was it just a day like that when things didn't work out alright? I guess so. It felt like some kind of test - how much of yourself can you give to somebody else.
I felt exhausted all Sunday long; I could hardly accomplish anything or even have any kind of fun. Besides I had some problems with the water heating again and so the day passed too quickly - it felt like a day lost.
What I cooked for dinner was this pumpkin soup for one person:
Made of one small potato, three slices of pumpkin - cooked and mixed; spiced with salt, coriander seeds and basil; I added some cream to make it even more delicious. At least something good that happened yesterday.
Have a lovely Monday!
3 comments:
Poor Pina :(
While reading this post, I felt sorry for you.
I enjoy the company of my partner, friends,... but I also need to spend some time totally alone :( Selfish and egoistic? :(
I completely understand what you mean, Pina. I enjoy the company of my family and friends but there are times when I also really need to be in my own company.
I know exactly what you mean, too. I am always sensitive (maybe too much so) to what others might be feeling, due to my presence. More often than not, I turn down chances to spend time with others, because I am just one of those people who is perfectly happy with long stretches of quiet, solo time.
I love that you are willing to write about topics like this. I'm always afraid I'd offend someone.
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